Thursday 27 November 2014

The Homeless situation Dublin City -Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014


The Homeless situation Dublin City

-Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014

(This is an article for a Christian based magazine)

Leviticus 25:35-36 


“If your brother becomes poor and cannot maintain himself with you, you shall support him as though he were a stranger and a sojourner, and he shall live with you. Take no interest from him or profit, but fear your God, that your brother may live beside you".




The homeless problem in Dublin has reached a troubling new level of proportion in these times of recession, rising property tax and growing cost of living in one of Europe’s most expensive cities. Underneath the skin of the city there are stories and lives to be known.

Focus Ireland, The Simon Community and The Vincent DePaul are some of the well known registered charities in Dublin that combat the homeless crisis. But there are many privately run charities that operate soup kitchens and soup runs in “down and out Dublin” and these operate out of a local Church. Such charities run on a Christian ethos of kindness, a non-judgmental attitude of charity for the needs of people coming from a variety of backgrounds.

The Mustard Seed is a privately run charity, which operates out of Trinity Pentecostal Church on Gardiner Street, run by Dougie Hobson with a team of up to forty volunteers. The members gather every Monday night. The faces are sombre and respectful, prayers are said for the mission and any sick persons known to the mission, before the night ahead. Silver canteens are filled hot water, suitcases are filled with woolly clothes, food provisions are packed and sleeping bags are provided on request. This is a judge-free collection of individuals who gather for a greater good, combating the every day evils of homelessness and offering support, advice and help for those battling with inner demons and addictions.

The teams are split into three groups, wearing red coats and covering both North and South of the river Liffey –with a driver even going out as far as the suburb of Rathmines.

I have met many Lithuanians, Poles and Latvians on the North city route, often outside Sackville Place, where hot soup and sandwiches are provided with stories of families left behind, poverty and embedded shame on returning home with scant prospect left.

The sights of the “have nots and have gots” are on display in the city centre but the characters that frequent the urban jungle in the dark are compelling for any man to examine, some have interesting stories to be told and be understood.

Ralph for example is an educated man, a former addict who loves to read, carries his ash plant around, talks about local history, likes to watch Simon Schama documentaries. Ralph possesses a warm charm and bubbly nature that strikes a cord with even the most apprehensive of people. His eccentricities are an attraction on a night of surreal sights and dismal realities. One man told the team about how he was made redundant, about his fight with poverty and his struggle to get a Visa back to America and in the meantime he has lost touch with his family. The team pray for people on the street, and many will accept without question or second thought the acts of thoughtfulness and benevolence offered, desperation but real desire are on show, mercy and real love exist in the midst of a social mess.

Domestic abuse, mental health problems and poverty are tragic situations within the human condition itself and these certainly play a part in the problem of homelessness, but heroin and methadone are to be held account for a large percentage in the displacement of many individuals. One can at times make a comparison between certain stretches of the city and Dante’s 9th ring of the inferno with some of the sights that are seen –which touch the emotions- the drama and the slavery to substance that is part and parcel of a drugs epidemic in Dublin City. 

As a Christian I believe than in Christ we must float above the deep waters and travails of our fallen society and lend a hand to those who are sinking, for we have all been through the throes of many sorrows and if it were not for Christ Jesus we too would be dead to hope and lost to God.

RTE have even broadcasted that the Irish Government has planned to build 75,000 council houses to tackle the growing crises.


The members of the Mustard Seed, don’t just offer material provisions and clothes for the homeless, but offer spiritual food, with kindness and they seek a breakthrough into the lives of real human beings, who are affected by the circumstances of human nature that can potentially affect all of us. Support is offered on a one to one basis with those who seek hope in a life of displacement, despair and often a destructive addiction. These are all part of the mission goals of a Christian charity that ventures the darkest parts of the city, working in and with the pot marked reality that has been un-earthed behind the social façade.

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Friday 21 November 2014

Civilisations- Christian sermon Copyright Robert Fullation 2014

Civilisations- Christian sermon
Copyright Robert Fullation 2014

If Hitler had the ability to fool an entire nation -and an incredibly advanced civilization one may add- into believing a grand deception, that an entire people -without the adduced proof or reasoning- were the enemy and the cause of that nations' troubles, then indeed how easy it will and can be for the so-called rational nations of the world to once be fooled and be duped into a grandiose immorality. One can fool and be fooled by a lie...a political lie that circulates through the veins, capillaries and arteries of the social order....an error that made men murder for the fear and hatred of another people.

With every deception -on such a collective scale as grand as that with what happened within Nazi Germany- the morality of the society declines...its absolute binding obligations...its duties to the vulnerable are scrapped and moral compromise becomes more apparent until the original harmony becomes a chaotic disorder and twisting of morals. The land of Reformers and Protestant learning gave way to a hideous ideology of pagan hero worship for the "fuhrer" where all integrity was sacrificed to an all or nothing...demented and hell bent nationalism that viewed its people as above and over all other peoples (and moral actions).

The laws of democracy were burnt, the power of reformatory Germany had ceased to have any binding effect upon the consciousness of the German people. Marxism, nationalism and fascism were the ideological maxims and choices of a people at the centre of four major European wars. A social Darwinism became the creed of the German people whose lust for revenge and identity as the apex of races drove them to ideological excesses, where the people-right through the classes- ran with the sheep over the cliffs.

If this "enlightened" modern people of western civilisation could be tempted, seduced, deceived and corrupted by a mass system of propaganda then what could say prevent it from happening again? Rationalism does not guarantee a boundary against the excesses of human nature, but merely seems to attack and discredit the great deterrents and prohibitions that stand against such excesses. If anything our educational system has tried to paint man as merely an animal..an apex animal and is therefore ironically anything but educational but a retrogressive waste of words....mere knowledge  not wisdom as our society slowly abandons its system of virtues for compromises and its constitutions are smelted down with amendments and challenges by dissenting voices . What was the result after the collapse of four world empires post WW1? Anarchy, revolution, the great doubt of masses, destruction of spiritual wholeness? The emptying of the soul in to a poison cup of false utopias poured out in revolution, abandoning the faith for the force of violence, anything but, the simple but profound virtues of the Christian faith and the inner courage that shrinked with political schisms. The media has gross proportion of representation over our life than ever before...it is perhaps the visible visage of  society itself to a greater extent...its sole aim is to sensationalise everything...it degrades the serious points of life and makes vulgar habits a point of entertainment...and makes responsibilities look "lame" but despite that many moan about why and how western civilisation has slouched and fallen to such a state of void...the civilisations will be fooled again and again with the latest political fad.

Each empire rises to a zenith and then slopes to a nadir of power, to which political and social scapegoats are searched for in the branding and condemnation of all for the troubles of the people and in such instances human nature really does emerge in hate and fury, beguiling vengeance and systematic persecution. Nero killed the Christians of the 1st century and blamed them for the burning of Rome, as blood and martyrdom were everywhere in the city of Rome, gossip spread amid the confusion. Likewise Christianity today is exposed to such weaknesses, it is misunderstood, it lacks robustness, it lacks intellectual might of thought and organisation -as it is divided on so many issues- but more importantly it needs boldness of faith to outstrip the anthropomorphic arguments and world views of an intellectually smug west. Depth, moral integrity, faith, ancient and holy reverence for the Christianity that was founded on the life of Christ and from his blood need to be re-addressed, as inert tests of character. Indeed every human life is a test of character...and the modern world is a calamitous drift to the reaches of Pluto away from the orbit of spiritual wholeness and God centred exuberance. Christianity must be shown in the light and model of absolute love, unbending will, with a character possessed of Christ's authority and divinity.

 Again I state that Christianity is a faith to be acted out, a relationship and not a religion in its true form and it must be shown to be nothing anthropomorphically designed but something other...something divine..for the spiritual dimension of God's love and power to be touching the material universe, in love and momentous power...man must stop with the cubic measurement of the spiritual...with he relentless analysis and smugness of debate and blind shuffling into frustration. The semantics of human life -our identity is being fooled with- and we are being lied to by the educators of our civilisation, who compare us to nothing and call our lives a mere nothing.

The extremes of delusion are shown on the opposite end of the spectrum with the depravity and epochal ideologies of ISIS, we have the long sought fight for the caliphate on our door once again as it is in the political soup for the future ahead. The caliphate is emerging as a movement -that when pressed down by the crushing of one Islamist movement, raises its ugly head in the mass barbarity of another- to justify itself in the all or nothing apocalyptic hell fire of an atavistic ideology that seeks to re-create the medieval society of 6th century Arabia, it is as nihilistic as the radical humanists of the west that gambled and put all their stakes on technocracy, commerce, entertainment and global communications...and forsook the faith of their forefathers for a mad politically correct  society of loop-holes and weak laws. No man can speak his mind against a liberal west that is befitting a mad hatter's tea party! So long as human nature remains as it is in its bondage to weakness, the divisions and great disturbances will remain, for it is a spiritual, a philosophical and metaphysical dilemma that has not been solved with the excesses of any new found order.

Serious resistance is needed against the snakes of false utopias that even F. Dostoyevsky recognised in his day and brilliantly lampooned as the "Devils". Once again I mention that un-worldly behaviour is needed...for in this world there is a contagion of weakness in the nature of man and in the union with Christ there comes the pilgrimage that takes one out of one's old life, out of selfishness, out of fear,  beyond worshipping ourselves as a god we give into sacrifice to the reason of why? In the Christ life....there we find the order a higher union -one can even be blown to pieces in the roaring faces of advancing army and not falter- for it implies that in the divine man, there shall be a new civilisation that rises from the charred remains of a long cratered and war filled earth. If man cant govern man, who can, if man cant defeat vice by democracy what can?

 But who wants to change their lives? Who wants to be led? Who wants to trust beyond what he cannot see, past a 12 foot wall of apparent impossibility? If our society teaches us the base and vulgar habits of beasts, -because they tell us that we are nothing but beasts, or blobs, or just merely nothing!- how will we learn the high values, deep moral truths, the lessons of humility, the lessons of sacrifice and endurance which need to become more relevant today. We must go from being more than mere unthinking clay shells, but spiritual warriors of love and grand belief. Belief is tested and burnt, tried and exhausted by the forces that oppose it, but its vitality and determination is rewarded by existence itself...because there exists a God that is in charge of the cosmos and all points are reaching out towards their end. Its the end that must be glorious for all we put in must be worth what we get out...being who we are and what we are..let us stick to our faith and believe...in Christ we have union with God.


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Tuesday 18 November 2014

UNTIL DAWN COMES AGAIN Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014

UNTIL DAWN COMES AGAIN
Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014


Fear is the dragon
that waits to eat
the hope,
of the knight within
that dares to challenge
the scaffolds and the towers
of the world,
and dark is the night
deposed of day,
the candle extinguished
the joy diminished
under the whip hand
pressed by time
and those opposed
to the knight
that shakes its armour
through the trials and tribulations
of mortal humanity
as human nature
walks and talks
quakes and breaks
against the tremors
of oppression
courage to feed he knight within
against the dark
that gropes and covers
all asunder with deception
feed the knight to fight the dragon
against eternal darkness
until dawn comes again
a million light years
from past to future
until dawn comes again

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Friday 14 November 2014

Christianity and Existentialism Part 5 Copyright Robert Fullarton

 Christianity and Existentialism Part 5

Copyright Robert Fullarton



Culture does not revolve solely around pleasure, but around the inquiry into life, no civilisations are great, but truly the more memorable ages have their sense of coherence, transcendence and value. Life itself needs existential analysis to see the depths of the human condition, but it does not need to indulge in baseness and endorse the selfish doctrine of modernity that pretends to promote individuality and instead creates segregation, baseness and persecution. 

Technology too, when used for the wrong means –when used as a catalyst for the entertainment business on an abnormal scale of events- can promote the popular pleasure principle mentality or baseness to which I have been referring to throughout the essay so far. 

To know the depths man must also search for the heights of his ascendant goals or destination –man must go beyond the pessimism of the existentialist philosophy that teaches, self pity, fatalism, putting man in a hopeless position and perhaps it does not even offer much for the individual man. Indeed Existentialism is essential to express the world of suffering and it certainly does express it, but it does not express the dimension of human joy within the realm of inner human structure- if life was pain in a perpetual motion, constant in every human life, at all times, then indeed life could be deemed to be the absurd, the sisphusian struggle, the malevolent curse of curses, but indeed it is not as uncongenial and as non-satisfactory as would have been supposed. We do not need a creed to preach the basic fundamentals of suffering once we have suffered in excess; the only answer comes in the antidote itself –life.


Angst and melancholia are comprised of a denial and that denial is the intellectual right for structure. This structure is in the prioritisation of our choices- a rather Kierkegaardian emphasis to make- that gives sentiment and value, reason and discipline to an otherwise dissolute existence. What does baseness mean? Baseness concerns inert confusion, nausea, sickness, depression, and a sort of death instinct seeps through. Man’s expectations are constantly frustrated by his own environmental limitations; therefore man must become adapt at dealing with his own environment and its limitations. Why exactly does man feel suicidal? Perhaps it is in the relentless refusal of desires that man crawls up from the kerb, with every desire dissipate, exhausted, wasted, his very libido, his very energy wasted. Where we have our sexual hunger denied us we have prostitution and pornography as a false substitute, where we have poverty we have welfare benefits, where we want alcohol like no tomorrow, we have pubs and plenty of booze, to wash away the memories, the emphasis for pleasure has left us with an insatiable appetite and the worst of all dull appetites is conformity. Every mood, every smile, all good intent, every creative urge, all necessities and hungers, turned on their head by society’s false promises. 

The door is always shut to the hungry and open to the gluttons. You have to be born a glutton to be a member of the club. This desire we speak of, a desire of our “manhood” is a desire to rise above a limitation, a shadow, an attachment that makes us base, primitive, ignorant and conditioned by pleasure and in turn we deny our cultural and individual need to reach new heights of discipline and structure. Existence depends upon a structure of its own. 



Under the conclusive findings of the structuralism or functionalism of modern anthropological insight –under the orientation of Levi-Strauss and his findings- and enquiries, we must silently confess that the historical rebellion “for freedom” has left the modern man, disorientated, set in confusion, the old primordial order has been dismantled, the old rudiments of a psycho-mythical mindset, has been rationalised.

Legally and physically the modern western man, on average, has the obvious advantage over the living conditions of say a typical worker in the factory districts of Shanghai or Mumbai. In such regions the old feudal order –caste system- persists, only it has succumbed to a new business class of rising entrepreneurs and profit over labour scheme. The old Marxian picture of Victorian London streams onwards to India and China, where the state has a sort of religious sentiment and authority over the common psychology of the individual. The modern western man however is on average not psychologically or intellectually free or particularly happier than the predecessors of the past century. The elucidation of human intellect needs labour, needs cultural emphasis –culture is supposed to be the celebration of the human endeavour or the best of a civilisation’s brightest minds- needs scientific enquiry, needs discipline, law, a healthy gravitational basis for which the private individual can gravitate towards.

The pillars of the old institutions that crumbled over centuries of sacrificial effort and conflict by the most endearing minds and possibly charismatic personalities, that has resulted in the psychological void leaving the modern man in the wasteland, by the wayside, confused, lost, without the structure- or as Strauss states “structure is order”- of the old disciplinary procedures, the old laws, the old taboos, the old chastisements and fears. Once these fears were removed, perhaps the capstone of church and state did indeed create the entire stony foundation, which has since collapsed within. The naïve aspirations of the common worker were simple and yet glorious in their day, cruel, tragic and yet glorious. A dual caption must be placed over the entire history of labour that has been directed under the enterprise of the ruling classes, a fools’-courage. Though the common peasant was exploited he was indeed happy in unawares of the privileges of the aristocracy, he simply strived for his daily bread, the sustenance of his family and his soul as he would have stated. A religious piety endured in the simplicity of the peasant with a quasi-mystical or psycho-mythical motive behind much of his operational agenda. The spiritual needs of the common man and woman were met not just in simplicity but also in the mindset of his world of associations, the state was a sort of security- even if it was an oppressor- all things were in motion within a church that had absolute power, with an authority that surpassed local regal authority- its dogma and doctrine were the limitations of popular intellectual stimulation- the moral capacities of “good and bad” the old censorship of chastisement of human baseness helped to regulate the authority of the establishment and to prohibit and reprimand criminal activity.

Where the very establishment of human happiness, belief, rational and irrational enquiry, intellectual and scholastic education are altered in the revolution of thought and action –we have indeed had one hell of a transvaluation of all values, a hideous scar has been cemented over with glamour and pomp, technological advancement, primitive mass psychology, cheap and tacky mass entertainment and a philosophy of cynical selfishness.

Man has indeed questioned the very fabric of the moral reality, the concepts of good and bad, dissected every form of efficient law and practice and let the levees break, the very sky has fallen in with regards to the intellectual agnosticism that permeates our modern western civilisation. A sort of Zarathustrian prophecy has reached its full climax, the old orders have long since been shaken, disturbed and knocked off their hinges and the possibility of a cultural nihilism have been exposed. The lowest nadir is soon to be reached in the most unromantic of all ages, this modern scramble in the dark, a faceless era, where man has no identity, has lost touch with the mystical, mythical, symbolic, nature of his own identity. A vast pervasive materialism has taken hold over too many easily persuaded minds-as cities bulge at the seem, art is sloppily reproduced in a warehouse by corporate moguls for greater profits, so fruitless and unimportant in the greater scheme of things.

I do not condone the atrocities of the aristocracy and the old European caste system. I certainly do not deplore the veritable rights of the peasant and the worker, but I also speak honestly as a citizen from a retrospective age, looking back on the excesses of material quantity, glamour, the amalgamation of classes into popular culture –popular myth- and see the dangers of excess, baseness and how the humanitarian whole can suffer in the slovenly minded gluttony that has come in our time. Psychological wellness in individuals leads to social wellness –of course this sort of airy-fairy pipe dream is never achieved- and the very acts of kindness, mercy, devotion are the absolutions of our existence that make the chaotic whole, seem harmonious in a tiny composite reality. In a world that encapsulates conflict, turmoil and confusion, that is utterly segregated, tribal and enunciated in the safety of numbers and powerful groups, it takes utter courage of every kind to speak your mind against a sort of dogma that draws water and authority. 

Even today in the east dogmas are lethal on the freedom and the existence of the individual, power again is in number and it is militaristic, it is apocalyptic, it is nihilistic in its ignorance of fact and phenomenon, it knows less about life because it superficially clings to a dogma and does not question nor search for answers. It also does not see the solution for individual angst in the small common day “miracles” of kindness and giving. All that makes a man is his legacy-some certainly act as if the world is imperishable and perish on the ignorance of their stupidity to think that they are invincible and infallible-against the unknown melodrama of life.

One must be born a member of the club, but rejection speaks volumes to the Christian who is hated almost as much as Christ is hated and indeed fated perhaps too, outside all doors, to the pale of loneliness beyond the naked eye. True practice of Christianity is an asceticism that has died to the ways of the world and been risen to a new life...the seemingly alien ways of Christian livelihood are contra to the ways of the world, natural raging passions, desires and lusts are denied, this is entirely a new nature for which all peoples must put on, clothe their minds with Christ and change.
In meaning and in depth, in structure of truth and canon of meaning, man builds and grows in what is greater, older, wiser and infinitely more powerful than what he is alone...but he is not a lonely existentialist he is a cog and a block in the heavenly structure, that lasts and grows, higher and higher into a holy mountain range, with peaks and wonders reaching tall.

What is truth? That is something to consider. Is there a reason behind the reason to question, a reason for the reasoning for man, for all things, the great and the many, the ugly and the sublime? Have you questioned yourself and gazed contently into your path of thought...to find the reason behind the appearance, the face behind the mask.

Christianity teaches us from Biblical sources that nature is spent of virtue and that nature is corrupt in core, that nature has in a sense clung to a nature of death and violence, to a realm of imperfection away from a God who seeks perfection with a will that goes beyond all natural understanding. So the existentialist is quick to point out the evils and decay within nature and quick to state "there is no god!" The existentialist is ready to put his faith in strange and weak movements of futurism and false utopias (such as the Marxist, feminist, fascist and humanist movements) he bewails the falling of moral structures and yet ironically he helps for moral structures to be demolished with watered liberality, with every zeitgeist (the movement of the age) and fad that comes and goes, his questions and accusations against absolute law and order, fan the flames for another revolt. Every man does what sees fit and what he calls right and what he calls wrong. This moral subjectivity and relativistic philosophy has done horrific damage to the strengths, standards, rich inner spirituality, intact moral standards and philosophy - for what man sees in his very fallible sight of conduct, thought and behaviour.  

Take for example the difference in Dostoyevsky's book the idiot, with the chief character Myshkin. He is a prince for another world, another kingdom another place, but not for this world of ours, he is an ideal of goodness, morality, character and order, but not for this system, for his opposes the world and nature of corruption, thus he is the good Christian and is despised for who and what he embodies.

Truth must be a bruised but unbroken reality,
a standard tested and not fully strained
worn but never torn from forces of opposition
truth is what it is against physical space
and timely questioning
where reality sheds her coats
of apparel
and all is seen beyond the veils
of appearance, falsehood
and disorder
truth beyond chaos outlasts
the rusting flotsam
and wreckage of false utopias
men will stare upon the stars
and wonder why?
For long ago upon
the old threads
of the ancient loom
where music was made
to stir creation
into living song
men were made for purpose
and in order
for good
is good
contra to evil
and good comes
forth from good men
out of evil times
and thus all love
is mightier
in the ant
despite the giants
of lovelessness
and selfishness
in man's pantheon
of wayward thought
and calamity




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Monday 10 November 2014

The Ant Colony- Copyright Robert Fullarton 2013

Copyright Robert Fullarton 2013....Taken from Our Lives as Fiction

The Ant colony



In the wide unfolding city of ants, a great contingency of ants, march
in their monotonous beat or tempo of progress, that come forward in
single lines, but these lines extend for miles off the beaten track
and extend backwards to the start of the trail that begins at each
entrance to the ant metropolis itself. This is the finest semblance of
civilisation itself, for these ants are a credit to all living
organisms, with their powers of organisation, their capacity to work
and their power of force and numbers and that is where their great
agility, power and abilities in conquest derive from. Their sheer
numbers have amounted to their overwhelming force in this great and
over populated district of the jungle. The fierce red ants themselves
are an exception to the rules here in the jungle, as most creatures
here concern themselves with the dumb base instincts of mating and
territorial disputes, these ants however concern themselves with the
questions of education, healthcare, science, mathematics and
literature written by the finest Antellian scholars, yes indeed these
ants have made themselves into philosophers of the tree top canopy and
they themselves have wondered where indeed all life has come from and
they have concluded that all life emerges from a tree top canopy or
perhaps from the buds, shoots and sprouts of the great towering
castles of the jungle where the giants dwell and the howling monsters
run and jump in their great games of noisy gestation and excitement.
But primarily these ants are warriors, who have rooted out and killed
every other ant from each ant colony within the local districts, these
creatures have an extraordinary ability to think and strategise before
each battle with the neighbouring spider clans of the brush, who were
eradicated last week in another infamous battle in the neighbouring
hinterlands that surround the colony and its conquests.

The colony has grown in recent years from a small relatively short few
of only a couple million, it has rapidly expanded in size, width and
breadth and its populous has grown to the bulging size of 7 billion
inhabitants which is even too much for the colony to house. The
antellian proliferation in both arms and technology has grown these
recent days, and has helped the ants to conquer every disgusting
insect and bug, and even the old primordial enemies like the deadly
mantis have been overcome by the use of the Antellian new found
armoury and weaponry that has built the empire which I speak of.
But since the ant population has trebled in the past fifty years, it
did certainly have a negative effect on the morale, the very cognition
and the freedom of certain ants and some ants have been categorized as
the “lower” brown ants and others have been dubbed the “higher” red
ants of society and this great divide in Antellian society has gone
unnoticed for the past thirty years as the vassals, the subjects and
the servant brown ants have yielded and succumbed to the power and the
control of the minority of red ants that allude and refer their own
names, their carers and fame to assert and exert their power and their
authority onto the slavishly driven backs of the lower masses. Day
after day the brown ant went about his daily business working, living
and dying for the needs of the privileged minority and these typical
protégées of suffering and slavery, had never realised, had never
known, nor thought, nor tasted the idea of freedom from their masters
nor had they ever considered a coup d’etat or a revolution against the
very corrupting influence that had built their chains and categorized
them into being the “lower” ants of society.

Posterity had proven, that no true freedom could exist without a
radical revaluation of all Antellian society and that meant that the
“higher” red ant society had to be defeated and conquered by any means
necessary, so that the very colony itself could be saved from all the
waste that occurred within and throughout the entire area, and I will
explain this all in good time. Over fifty years ago, and this dates
back to the major second ant war, that commenced between two great red
ant warlords for the possession of the great chocolate chip cookie
that once lay completely idle at the furthest boundaries of the
northern gate of the colony and this war was a waste and a colossal
failure for the aspirations of the honest humble ant that wanted to
live, work and dream his life away in a jovial state of freedom, but
unfortunately the cunning and conniving red ants of the colony had
started up the rumour that the cookie had to be fought for and that it
was the pride, the joy and the very thing that every ant needed and of
course the ruling reds stated that they would give a certain portion
of the great bountiful cookie to every ant  but of course not a single
crumb was given and what happened in reality was far from the truth.
No single brown ant was destined for even a half a crumb of cookie,
but the cookie was divided between the warring factions and dividing
sects of the colony and of course given to the ruling red class that
devoured the final remnants of the cookie and grew fatter and fatter
as time wore on.

Out of this frivolous exploit of the working class there came the
numbers and the figures, the facts and the truth that in fact over two
hundred million brown ants had given their lives for nothing, for no
dreams, nor promises and certainly no cookie was given or even offered
to the honest hard working brown ant that toiled through the many
layers and tunnels of each colony district to expand tunnels, collect
food, scout new territories, fight in new found conquests against the
neighbouring aphids and of course pay their respect, their homage,
fealty and loyalty to their overlords and their masters.
Immediately after the great second ant war, there came about an age
old revolution that changed everything, like never before, the old
line of queens that stretched back to the infancy of the colony, back
to the primordial days of black ant times, had been broken and this
was a new found change in ant evolution, for ants had never gone this
far from their own anatomy and nature before, for this was the
topsy-turvey change, the imbalance and the great alteration that was
brought about by the rumours, the gossip and the corrupting lies of
the ruling red classes. A secret council of red ants had decided over
many meetings that the old queen had to go, for her authority had
slipped, and her voice was no longer as strong and powerful as it had
once been throughout every corner of the colony. So of course they
delegated the task of the revolution and general revolt to the poor
abused brown ant masses. The rumours were spread by every ant
reporter, every ant press and paper and even the Antellian rulers and
local oligarchic chieftains stated that the queen herself was guilty
of every crime of war, every seditious act against the general “lower”
ant and that she was guilty of the very murderous sum of casualties
and losses met for the last second great ant war and that her power
was no longer needed, for Ant no longer needed royal authority, for he
was beyond it, he had evolved into being a rational ant, from a grub,
to a black ant, to a brown ant and then unto the glorious red ant
itself. One day when timing was in accord to the tastes of the ruling
red class, the brown ants of the watermelon mines went on strike and
they refused to collect, to work and store any more plunder for the
needs of the queen, her family, the royal council and the nobility
themselves. The sheer number and force of ants the world over was a
colossal statement that the power of the “ordinary” ant great exceeded
and triumphed over the greedy, gluttons and cunning ruling red class
and for a day the typical underprivileged, disenfranchised ant stood
ready to inherit what should have been his, and that was namely the
power to create a real government for the people, a real society for
the people, real institutions for an egalitarian society, with real
proper “brown” ant role models and a proper morally ant like lifestyle
for all ant brothers and sisters to embrace. But unfortunately the
lies flooded every corner and inch of the colony like wildfire from
the powerful mini-printing presses of the red ants –for the red ants
held all the positions of power, media, control and every part of the
Antellian social output, owned and ruled all the food store houses and
they lived in their own ant mansions and boroughs- and the revolution
went too far too quickly, for the great dome of the queen’s mountain
was stormed at the centre of the colony, her educators, advisers,
relatives, nobles and distant relatives were slaughtered as a tide of
ant columns rushed forward in masses from all divulging sides and
boundaries of the colony map and this revolution resulted in the
eventual ritual murder of the queen herself, after her trial had
ceased. After the revolution had ended, when the tired, gasping
efforts of the hungry brown ant had brought him to war and after he
left his bloody weaponry aside, only then did the new rulers emerge,
the very red socialites that urged, enticed and emphasised this great
unnatural rebellion to force.

These men emerged, offered new, great
living conditions and living standards for the ordinary common ant and
these men were nothing near what the hungry brown hearts of the
ordinary ant had bled for, these rulers were red blooded, red skinned,
red ants and they had tricked the brown ants into doing their own
dirty work for them. Of course no real immediate change commenced, but
a void, a natural void grew in the old social order and in the hearts
of the great brown masses who went without the natural order of their
queen and her advisers. The old rule of the queen was over, that
ancient natural dynasty that was reflected in the order of both bee
and wasp species alike had now finally bowed out and completely
floundered in the face of the rise of the “new” reds and now this was
the age of the super-reds and I will get to this in a minute on the
history of Antellian life itself.

Great ant economists, businessmen, traders, inventors, scientists,
industrialists and affluent ants all from well established backgrounds
and establishments came forward to influence both the ruling reds and
the subordinate browns to promote and endorse a new found order, that
helped to drill, to drain and evaporate all the minerals, natural
elements and rich nutrients from every inch of soil and every nook and
cranny of the colony itself. Ants became industrialists for the first
time, and with the new found alchemy of these scientist ants there
emerged the great businesses that thrived and ran on the backs of the
brown worker ants and the great mineral findings from the earth.
Ants developed machines, fashioned, enflamed, developed and
transformed their basic primeval tools and gadgets into complex
machines that went far beyond the minds of their bronze and silver
mixing forefathers. These machines and gadgets were a prized asset to
the appetites of the new growing elite class of reds that grew fatter
and fatter, bigger and broader from all the plant matter, the
watermelon the food and forage they were paid by every ant in exchange
for their devices, machines and gadgets. These ants prospered off the
truly unknown secret of modern times and that was peacetime ant
society and in peacetime ant society, the ordinary ants themselves had
found themselves bored, confused and yet again muddled, controlled and
manipulated by their “rulers” who had profiteered off the earnings and
wages of the brown working class, by selling and promoting a new and
entirely frivolous and stupid way of life, according to their own
wants. Out of this era there came the birth of the super-reds or the
perfect ego’s or the ant role model brigade, as they were collectively
known by all avenues of ant society and by the press of the reds
themselves. These new role models thought that the success, the power,
the status, the life and the wealth of the reds was indeed what all
ants in general should aspire and amount to and that these icons were
the perfect semblance of ant happiness and freedom, and these
super-reds which endorsed, backed and worshipped the products, the
gadgets and the lifestyles of the new elite industrialists,
scientists, businessmen and rulers. These ants were promoted by the
eyes and mouth of the state for the ordinary browns to worship and
aspire to, their images were up to be displayed on the walls of every
ant home, they were promoted in the aerodome brainwashing facilities
that were created as a new “form” of entertainment by the ruling
masses for the “lower” class and of course, these facilities and
centres were believed by the modern, supposedly “super browns” to be
the greatest form of pleasure available to the modern, “civilised”,
rationalised, educated, enlightened ant alive in this apparent antopia
of inventions and accumulation. The reds had as subtle as ever,
seized, or more rightly been given the vast accumulation and control
of the colonies supply of plant matter, food, forage, iron ore,
minerals, the very elements and the very machines, products and
gadgets which the masses all purchased, worked to own and aspired for
and this little ruse of an idea was developed by the ruling class
themselves and this had been developed, forged and stated so that the
browns, apparently could evolve at a more rapid rate, so that they
could become like their idols the super-reds and then the class of
super-reds would expand and the gap or boundary between the starving
underprivileged browns and the ultra rich, mansion owning, self
proclaiming demi-gods of the super-reds society that expanded,
deepened and grew each year and decade that “modern” life exhausted
itself out.

                                                                   II

I am the hidden, the secretive and the anonymous ant that writes this
secret, parabolic history of the world, and I write this all, with the
intent to inspire the old flames of inspired individualism, freedom,
hunger for truth and emancipation to the power of the browns, by whose
blood am I born and whose spirit I inhabit and have inherited through
my own blood convictions, spiritual idealism and general capacity to
write. I write on the ideal future, which is a prophecy to the browns
that shall inherit the earth and shall overthrow the reds at the final
battle that will commence, all in due course and at the right time and
place in both history and world affairs, for all that done, learnt,
lost and exposed is done chronologically when all Ant alike can learn
an epic lesson, make the bold and brave jump forward and can
conceptually visualize and realize the truths and the freedoms at our
own general disposal, these irrevocable changes shall come within
every age and every change of Antellian society.
 I write boldly in my secret position on the map and I keep these
notes to myself so that I shall reveal these words and thoughts all in
due time, at the right moment itself.

Anyway, as I was saying in this written account of mine, which is a
valuable lesson to any estranged witness that comes across our
intelligent race of ants in the universe of unintelligent and
seemingly organic insects. The very hope and the very life giving,
life preserving colony that we have belonged to, have been born into
and have been part of since the dawn of time, is coming to ruin
through the exploits and the machines of the ruling reds and the
“super-reds” and this has happened after the constant burning, mining,
digging, and destruction of our own resources throughout our own
colony.

There are now holes and cracks within the very outer layers of
our colony and with the way things continue, these formerly secure
walls and layers are beginning to crack and dissolve slowly and at the
rate things are going the rain from the great summer floods will come
and wash us away. This cataclysmic, apocalyptic threat that we face
from the rain, with the distinct possibility for our own extinction as
a species has been brought forth by the ruling class, so that they can
expand their own power in a time of antillian crisis, the ruling class
has often exaggerated certain reports that if the walls collapse any
further, then the giant army of killer moths that lives beyond the
upper outlets of our colony dome, will come rushing forward to eat us
all into extinction. But alas I know this is all a terrible lie
perpetrated, spread and told by the ruling class, who have sold a
fortune on moth repellent bombs, anti-mothellian weaponry and
gadgetry. Similarly the press released a recent report that stated
that the holes made in the colony layers would create a burning solar
flare or spot from the great burning eye and that this heat would heat
the colony itself to such a rapid increase in temperature that the
very colony itself would go up in flames, from the burning surfaces in
the colony.

Of course such hoaxes could be naturally disproved since
we have actually had a great decrease in the general temperature of
the colony and have had no need for the mass produced, mass endorsed
Antillian fire-extinguishers that have been sold in masses on the
markets.

It is true to state that we have come too far from our nature, our own
ant like inheritance in life, we have betrayed our creator, our
natural order and our simplistic, but intuitive and explorative way of
life, for a new lust for power, accumulation and control of the
resources and now finally we are told that we have played a part in
the destruction of our own colony! I state that we should stop hunting
out, conquering and killing our neighbouring creatures, we should show
respect and reserve for them and we must work with what we have, stop
conquering and stop exploring new further distant lands and
territories, for our problems lie in the ruling class and has always
been with the ruling class and it will take the working subordinate
browns, to make the change and to overthrow the power of the reds.
How I wish we could think and have the knowledge, the appreciation,
the wisdom for nature, the belief in the extra-ordinary and powers and
abilities of our forefathers of antiquity who once had the ability to
make everything out of wood, stone and simple naturally based tools,
they lived, they thought and worked for freedom, even if they weren’t
as free as they should have been or wanted to be, but at least they
used, conserved, reserved, preserved, stored, naturally produced,
cultivated and recycled all that was given them by their own known
source at the dawning of each dawning day.

Nowadays we have wasted everything, learnt nothing on the conservation
and preservation of things that our once naturally and
agriculturally-industrious forefathers had knowledge of, practised and
lived by way before our own generation had come to pass! We have
become reliant on our gadgets, our precious metals, materials, our
minerals, our possessions, or machines, our precious beloved ant
technology and of course our “beloved” rulers whom we seem to be bound
to no matter what. We have forgotten the art of freethinking for
ourselves and we have only seen ourselves to be a wart or blemish in
the preciously beautiful face of Antillian society, when in fact we do
not belong to nay face of society, but are our own separate face for
our own separate constitution, constellation, antopian life. Live life
as good individuals, in the truth of a good, natural life, don’t
follow or absorb the ideas of false role models and self proclaimed
gods, for there lies a terrible flaw in the life of those that
practice such a life, for makes the corrupt more powerful and leaves
the underprivileged in a worse position that ever before.



                                                              III


I have to conclude that I maybe a single ant in the great collective
energy of the hoard and I am the first of my kind, to see and think
differently than my contemporaries, my peers and rivals, and so it
labels me as an enemy of life itself, perceives me to be odd, deranged
and probably even a disturbed little ant, but what do I care, for any
ant that chooses his destiny, must abide by it, love it, nurture it,
show fidelity towards it and revolve around it, so to drink the high
wisdom and the freedom of the ant firmaments and heavens.

I have concluded on my own at the end of this historical, political
treatise, polemical strike on society, through reasonable resources of
the ant intellect, not through the quantifiable methods of
mathematics, nor contemporary philosophy, the downfall and the
eventual change or eventual revolution or “final revolution” as I call
it, that will defeat and destroy the age old rule of the current
ruling red class and it shall set up and establish the long awaited,
fully misunderstood, newfound powers of the brown ant civilisation,
that shall abide by peace and shall co-exist in unison with all nature
and all life itself, in a spirit of brotherhood support.

One day, perhaps very soon, in our own world we shall see the rise of
more independent, individual ants, whose concern is not solely and
entirely based around the powerful and persuasive means of Antillian
gadgetry and materialism. Some may say that one day soon, perhaps too
soon our fate may be sealed in the destructive force of the insatiable
ant eater that dwells somewhere out there in the far beyond- whom we
have been lucky not to meet so far- and some might state that our fate
as a society might be sealed in the natural, ecological destruction of
the outer layers of our colony dome and such destruction would bring
immanent flooding which might finish us all off. Perhaps, a series of
natural disasters shall culminate and fulminate through time and many
may perish from the exploits, mistakes and wrongs committed by the
rulers of this colony, but I believe that rulers shall seize more and
more of the colonies resources, plant matter, materials, valuable life
sustaining resources for themselves and shall become more despotic,
more daring in their subtle plans for control and certainly more
devious as time passes so that they can fool the masses into giving
them whatever they want. But a battle for survival may come, that will
see the masses turning on their selfish overlords and they will want
their share of food, materials, life, emancipation, freedom and truth,
which they all deserve and it is only a matter of time before the
browns realize that they have been the subjects of a grand and epic
mockery, a jest or trick that has been played against them for too
long.

At a time of great upheaval, the browns will work together in order to
survive as a race against extinction and they will work and team
together, discover their own capabilities, work as naturally like
their forefathers once did, and they will seize and demand the power,
the food and action that they want to save their own colony and their
own dignity and integrity before it is too late. They smash the
machines, destroy the false idols and false role models and they will
topple the old cemented statue of their enemies age old power and they
will rule the colony for themselves, they will think for themselves
and do the impossible, what their forefathers only dreamt of doing.
The browns have the mind to do the seemingly impossible and it is only
a matter of time before they destroy their age-old oppressors, yes, it
is only a matter of time.

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Wednesday 5 November 2014

Former Days in Former Yugoslavia part 1 Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014

Former Days in Former Yugoslavia

Introduction Part 1


Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014


It has been 10 years to be exact since I first went to Croatia and the region of former Yugoslavia.
I knew nothing about Yugoslavia except from what I had heard from the various media reports and broadcasts. The cultural melting pot of such nations are the sediments and fractures of various empires for which consequences have been dire and these peoples have been born into a backdrop of ruthless idealism, blind nationalism and into repetition of history that was forged and moulded by the courses and actions of various empires. These people are a little people and yet simultaneously they are a great people, each one has in its possession the power to love and forgive the guilty neighbour -if they choose to- for all are guilty, part in parcel in some effect in the great scheme of things. There is great poverty behind the facade of the growing tourist industry. There are architectural and historical gems to be found piled upon the layers of history and dominion each empire has imposed and left treasures upon the face of the land and the heart of the southern Slavic peoples.

The Balkans has its unique heritage, its cultures, its beauty, its poverty, its rustic and rough struggle for independence, a land of passions within gardens of immense beauty. No wonder Byron once remarked " At the moment of the creation of our planet, the most beautiful merging of land and sea occurred at the Montenegrin seaside... When the pearls of nature were sown, an abundance of them were strewn all over this area". Similarly G.B Shaw was besotted by the beauty of the Croatian city of Dubrovnik.....exclaiming it to be "the pearl of the Adriatic."

Across the Adriatic, covering the span of the border between Bosnia and Croatia you will gaze with wonder at the ugly,barren, lunar like Dinaric Alps, that scrape and tear the sky apart with their jagged Karst formations, but they are a definitive feature that dominates and defines the Dalmatian coast of western Yugoslavia. Their beauty lies in the wild remoteness and sheer size of these stony giants that greet you, when you step off the plane, in part Dalmatia is a land of stones and shrubs, but these mountains are filled with raptors, with hidden floral delights and fauna that have their own uniqueness on this particle part of the planet. There are coves and turquoise lagoons that make one think of Homer's Odyssey with the dwelling of the cyclops and some believe St.Paul was shipwrecked on the southern Dalmatian island of Mljet (meaning honey) which was at the time snake infested.

There is natural beauty in the midst of real social issues that rage on despite issues of corruption in Zagreb and the reminders of long-standing hatreds and scores that have existed between various peoples, creeds and causes that have been at the core of great travails and tragedies that were heated to boiling point some twenty years ago. Each people wants representation and fears that they will fall under the control of the other...and we must not forget that in each empire (particularly the Habsburg empire) one people, one class and one language has dominion over all others, as minorities lose their cultural identity as a people. when one gets on top...the others suffer in a game of revolving paranoia between the stronger nation and the vassals and in such cases hatred turns to genocide, as people can be dehumanized into mere rats or mere animals. This is a history lesson which has been played out in the Balkans -this too has even happened during the last Graeco-Turkish war.

I have traveled primarily through Croatia, but have ventured into Bosnia-Herzegovina and Montenegro on various day trips. From my travel readings and my conversations with the different peoples of the region I have come to gather a fascination for these lands and their stories are rich in meaningful insight, sorrow and restoration for a new time to come.


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Saturday 1 November 2014

C.S. Lewis’ Surprised By Joy One Man’s search for meaning Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014

C.S. Lewis’ Surprised By Joy
One Man’s search for meaning
A review by Robert Fullarton
Copyright Robert Fullarton 2014



This is an auto-biographical book first published in 1955 and covering the early years of Lewis life and is truly in definition a “spiritual biography” of a man’s belief system from atheism to Christianity. The book begins with Lewis’ background and relatively happy upbringing in Belfast.
A theme that runs through this work is that of education. Lewis learns the hard lessons of youth, with the death of his mother from cancer at the tender age of eight, he recalls his first encounter with the adult world, the reality of hardships and disappointments that follow. Lewis is sent to boarding school in England, where he is estranged from his emotionally cold father, Albert. Lewis is privately tutored by a masterful and brilliant logician, a rationalist and atheist teacher called Kirkpatrick, who teaches Lewis all things about academia and logic, but fails to feed the former joy that emotionally emblazed him as a boy. Something is absent from Lewis’ life, the childhood innocence and the joy he shared with his older brother Warnie has long since gone. All he knows is learning, a grand scholastic education, even an indifference to life has built up within him and all great books and scores of classical music fail to match or replace the former joy that was lost when his childhood was cut-short for good. Lewis graduates from Wyvern boarding school with honours and studies English literature at Oxford University, where his great mind merges and meets other great minds of the day such as the like minded JRR. Tolkien and Owen Barfield who feed Lewis’ passion for myth and legend and are surprisingly the spark that ignite the keg in his search for answers and meaning.

 A great debate with himself concludes as Lewis goes forth on his quest for joy believing that joy itself is not the value alone that he sought, but the object of such desire is beyond the human body and into the unknown. Lewis and his college friends discuss myth, the origins of each religion and where one system of thought may be true as opposed to being mythology and Lewis called Christianity as the one “true myth”. Lewis’ heart is turned to certain aesthetic experiences of ecstasy, meaning and self-revelation, after the first experience he accepts the possibility that there is a God but has no idea what or who such a being may be. Over time and at the very end of the book, Lewis has another revelation and experiences another moment of aesthetic beauty and with that another levee breaks, with his confession that Jesus is God incarnate. The reservations of a man whose whole life had been learning and rigid academia teach him the intangible and three-dimensional depths of life’s learning experience and how we have to reach outward to something bigger, greater, far older and more powerful that ourselves. This book for me is a romance of belief and a quest for what the ancients called Agape (Divine love).


At times the book can be quite longwinded, as it seems to have been written almost entirely for academics with an acquired taste and knowledge for classical literature and romantic poetry. Lewis the poet and professor of medieval literature certainly comes out in the long discussions of different poets and writers that were spiritually appetising for his required tastes. Too much is mentioned about the public school system of the day and its various inequalities. Too little is spoken on his conversion experiences- which are left in sparse form until the final three chapters of the book. Too little is mentioned about his war-time experiences- which were brief but immensely enjoyable narratives of war. Personally the book speaks to me as a reader, a Christian and general lover of literature with its philosophical search for meaning –as each person can learn all things about the world but know nothing of the why over the scientific, the character of the person inside us dims when one fails to feel and question their own search for truth. It is true that “one is afraid not to call one’s soul, one’s own”, but each person must look outward for the answer to strike inward.

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